Dear Universe, Divine Being, or whoever is up there running the show,
This is all going by way too fast. My darling little only is going to be 2 1/2 in just a couple short weeks, I have one more year of school, and I simply do not have enough time!!! I am finding it increasingly harder and harder to find time for family, school and friends -- and yes, in that order! I've been taking 15 credits, equivalent to five classes, and striving to be present when Nealie comes in the door, but some days the best I have is, "Hey, you wanna watch Scooby Doo?"
They tell you. You don't listen, but the do tell you.
It goes by way too fast. It doesn't feel like Nealie was a tiny 5 pound baby only yesterday. It feels like DECADES AGO. It seems like today is going way too fast and yesterday is but a vague memory. I don't take enough pictures, I don't right down those sweet little sayings that Nealie blurts out, I recently realized that I don't even remember what her first word was!!! But it doesn't do me any good to beat myself up. I just have to work on being more present. I don't want to be remembered as the mom who never had time.
So I have been very excited for Summer 2010. To some, this might be living a bit too far in the future, but for me it signifies freedom. Since I am going to have to go get a fulltime job after I graduate in December of 2010, I decided to pull Nealie completely out of daycare and devote the summer to US! Yes, travel, playdates, reconnecting with friends, swimming, the works!
But since it is NOT the summer of 2010 and it is actually December 6th of 2009, I think it is my job to stay in the present (didn't I just say that?). So here's to running around like a crazy person in our basement, dancing without rhythm, coloring. drawing, singing, laughing...
School is out in two weeks and then I've got a full two weeks to be with family and play. And, in the meantime, homework can wait until 8:30 pm. SHE'S more important, fer sure.
